ToiLeT PaPeR

tonight i innocently went to the bathroom, (my bathroom) that ko is constantly taking over. and i went to get some toilet paper to discover that there wasn't any there. (of course, ko uses a roll every time he goes)

so it's only us three, me and the boys at home, as always, which present a problem. i opened the door and yelled for ko for almost 5 minutes before he answered me with a "what". i told him i needed some toilet paper. 5 more minutes and i have to ask him again. i hear him go to the closet where the rolls are suppose to be and i remembered that i didn't stock the closet yet, and the rolls were out in the garage.

i told him to get me some out of his bathroom. another 5 minutes go by and i hear the t.v. turn on in the other room. GOOD LAND! CAN HE JUST GET ME SOME TOILET PAPER!

"COLE!!!!!"

"what?"

GET ME SOME TOILET PAPER......................NOW!...................please.

so he finally bounds into my room and throws about a square and a half in the doorway. he was laughing, and even though i was really mad i was laughing so hard i started to cry, and told him if he didn't get me more toilet paper he was going in a time out.

PrEsEnTs

twas the night before christmas....

christmas was me that the sprouts.
i'm getting more comfortable with being alone, and alone with my boys.

we took a trip up to idaho to visit my dad and we saw the cousins.
we played in the snow

BirTDaY

presents?

every present needs scribbling

it was a good birthday, but i have never felt more tired

this is a new year.

i hated so many things about last year.

i lost a lot.......a husband, stability, income, direction, self-esteem, friends, my future as i knew it, a lot of sleep, and 70 pounds.

i also gained last year. self respect, control over MY life again, confidence, new friends, love for myself, charity, a new face in the mirror, and greater love for my children.

lessons i learned: life is hard and not always fair, free agency can be such a blessing and curse depending how you look at it, it's easy to judge others, but more difficult to just love them, if you want something bad enough you can achieve it.

the biggest lesson learned: i am glad to be the person i am. before i wasn't always sure, but i can honestly say now that i like being me, flaws and all.....because there is really so many more good things to me than just my flaws......i had to depend on those good things about me to get me through this year.

i have set some new goals for myself for this year. as i think it's a good tradition for every year. this last year was probably one of the first years that i took my list seriously and actually accomplished some of them. i hope to make even more of my goals realities this year.

these goals for me have been a way for me to measure my own progress in life.....am i going anywhere? or just being a time waster.

i never want to be the later.

BaG iT

made cute bag for ronica (check)

merry christmas

32

happy birthday to me

i'm 32 (i know you are secretly loving my homemade vest and gold chain necklace)

ChRiStMaS

we get a live tree every year.
i spent all night trimming it.

my favorite decorations this year

nativity

GrAtITuDE

my boys
my testimony
my friends
my family
freedom
the drop of gas prices
  fuzzy and warm socks from the gap

ko gave a talk in primary at church.

the topic being "i am thankful to know i am a child of my heavenly father". 

i was so proud of him. he loves to speak at the podium. so today he was excited. he held up the pictures and repeated the whole talk that i whispered in his ear. it was awesome.

will he know how proud of him i am?

FaIrY GoDmOThErS

today was a bad day

where is my fairy godmother when i need her? 

she is suppose to show up when i'm crying on my pumpkin surrounded by mice with a torn dress.......and offer to babysit my kids 4-5 days a week, read them stories, making them cookies, kissing their owees, and loving them just the way i would.

shady fairy godmothers, they're so unreliable.

DeAr SaNtA

dear santa

for christmas i want
too
spee
d ra
cer
airplane, tractor
transformer
wal
m(x'd) w(x'd) l
e
books
candy 

ko has gotten into christmas this year.

he actually gets it. every time we go to the store it ends up being a "mom, c'mere, i want to show you this, you have to tell santa to bring this to me." or "i need to show what i want to get from santa claus." and of coarse i have really liked him getting into it because now i get to use the 'are you naughty or nice' routine. sometimes i even tell him if he can't obey me i will have to call santa and tell him that maybe he better not come to our house. this straightens out any problems we are having INSTANTLY!

he gets so excited about it so it's hard to tell him that santa can't bring him everything he wants............so i told him we should sit down and write him a letter.

when we got home from the store the other day he was SO ready to write his letter. i fed him lunch and cleaned up and we sat down for a couple minutes.

the whole time he was bouncing up and down right next to me, following me around, waiting for me to come help him. after i put e down for a nap, i told him i would help him.

we got out paper and colored pencils. 

i put my hand over his to help him to write and he pushed my hand away saying, "i can do it!"

okay fine! so he asked me how to spell 'dear santa'. i said "D" ..................and he totally put the pencil down on the paper and wrote a "D". WHAT?! how did he know how to do that? then I said "E", and he proceeded to write and "E". i was stunned. 

he is only 4, do 4 year olds do this? he had only ever shown me he could write and spell his name, but no other letters. the whole letter he wrote went like that. the only letter he couldn't remember was a "B" and instead of asking me for help he ran into the kitchen to see it on the magnetic letters on the fridge. then he came back and finished his letter.

what a smart boy.

i was impressed. he told me it was his homework.  at one point he made his "W" an "M" and i reached over there and crossed it out and wrote a "W" to show him and instead of leaving it there, he crossed my "W" out and wrote another one that he made himself. he was so funny about wanting to do the whole thing by himself. and i love the fact that the letters are all over the place and one word can take up two rows.

It SpEaKs

today e said "cole" for the first time. 
it really sounded like "COE" in a southern accent. he said it all day, he was so proud. for some reason he has been shy about talking. i know he can do it but he just hesitates. i was really happy. both ko and i clapped, and shouted YEAH!!!!! we were in the car driving home from the gym.

lately he has also taken a great interest in singing. we sing at night and in the car and yes, at church. he just pretends he knows the words and sings the whole song. at church he opens the hymn book and sits very still with a very large smile on his face singing along with the congregation.

i am so proud of my boys, it takes very little for them to impress me.....
 
ko also willingly ate an apple, (if you know anything about my boys is that they are the world's pickiest eaters that i am trying to reform)....... without a bribe, on his own just to show e that he was eating it too and that it was good.....even though he really hates them and as soon as e started eating it, he didn't have another bite. 
it made me get the "warm fuzzies" inside and got the motivation to move onto the next healthy item on the list........corn. 
i think we've come a long way from "you eat it or DIE!" 
okay, just kidding, it's actually, eat it or sit in a time out and starve until you do.....but it sounds more mafia the other way don't you think? 
every job needs a little drama.

MaN oF SnOw

we got snow

ko was anxious to play

trying out a snow angel

he made lots of little snow balls and tried to stack them on one another. i watched him from the window. 

he needed help making a snowman, so i went outside.

we did it together.
we rolled the snow into a balls all over the lawn and keep patting it solid. he was impressed how big my snowballs were.

we gave him "button eyes", didn't have a carrot for the nose, but found what we could. he loved him. as soon as he was done i rushed to the house and told him to have fun with his new friend. a few minutes later i saw him trying to pack baby snowballs on the sides for arms. 

it made me laughing. 

he came in soon after that. a couple hours later i saw the snow man leaning even farther than he was before and by three hours later, he bit the snow dust.....ko was sad, but i just told him that his snow man needed to lie down because he was tired and need a nap.

PrE -K

halloween is over, but we are still "webbing" people.

preschool had a fall party, 

ko was excited and shouted, 

"mom, hi!  come sit by me",

when we got there.

something is funny

story time

the teacher who is very kind and sweet

like a g-ma, we heart her

e came too

PuNkiNs

happy halloween everyone!

WhErE iS tHe WiTcH

witches are out.

how many witches you find will

determine if you get a cookie at the bakery or not. 

we always have fun with our friends.

outhouse witch

stretch