ToiLeT PaPeR

tonight i innocently went to the bathroom, (my bathroom) that ko is constantly taking over. and i went to get some toilet paper to discover that there wasn't any there. (of course, ko uses a roll every time he goes)

so it's only us three, me and the boys at home, as always, which present a problem. i opened the door and yelled for ko for almost 5 minutes before he answered me with a "what". i told him i needed some toilet paper. 5 more minutes and i have to ask him again. i hear him go to the closet where the rolls are suppose to be and i remembered that i didn't stock the closet yet, and the rolls were out in the garage.

i told him to get me some out of his bathroom. another 5 minutes go by and i hear the t.v. turn on in the other room. GOOD LAND! CAN HE JUST GET ME SOME TOILET PAPER!

"COLE!!!!!"

"what?"

GET ME SOME TOILET PAPER......................NOW!...................please.

so he finally bounds into my room and throws about a square and a half in the doorway. he was laughing, and even though i was really mad i was laughing so hard i started to cry, and told him if he didn't get me more toilet paper he was going in a time out.

PrEsEnTs

twas the night before christmas....

christmas was me that the sprouts.
i'm getting more comfortable with being alone, and alone with my boys.

we took a trip up to idaho to visit my dad and we saw the cousins.
we played in the snow

BirTDaY

presents?

every present needs scribbling

it was a good birthday, but i have never felt more tired

this is a new year.

i hated so many things about last year.

i lost a lot.......a husband, stability, income, direction, self-esteem, friends, my future as i knew it, a lot of sleep, and 70 pounds.

i also gained last year. self respect, control over MY life again, confidence, new friends, love for myself, charity, a new face in the mirror, and greater love for my children.

lessons i learned: life is hard and not always fair, free agency can be such a blessing and curse depending how you look at it, it's easy to judge others, but more difficult to just love them, if you want something bad enough you can achieve it.

the biggest lesson learned: i am glad to be the person i am. before i wasn't always sure, but i can honestly say now that i like being me, flaws and all.....because there is really so many more good things to me than just my flaws......i had to depend on those good things about me to get me through this year.

i have set some new goals for myself for this year. as i think it's a good tradition for every year. this last year was probably one of the first years that i took my list seriously and actually accomplished some of them. i hope to make even more of my goals realities this year.

these goals for me have been a way for me to measure my own progress in life.....am i going anywhere? or just being a time waster.

i never want to be the later.